Assumptions

I came across a picture last year of a pink hair lady with heavy make up which looks like a doll who had then just gave birth to her baby boy.

Her name is Wendy Aka Xia Xue (下雪). At first I was curious as why is this girl so famous. After reading to some of her entries and her FAQ section on her blog, I realise haaaaa! She's that typical Taurean who doesn't give a shit about what others think about her and just do her stuff. 

Notably, she happens to be very very honest about her life which inspires me a lot. I always have that feeling of guilt whenever I had to say or do things against my will. That's why I always end up being in a contradict situation. To do or not to do, weighing in too much of considerations and consequences in my own assumptions of what's important but in the end it actually means nothing to someone else. Always making the wrong choices. 

I believe most girls are like that. Hesitating too much and give in to self insecurity which in the end leads to trusting issues in a relationship. I was once told off by someone, do not manipulate the situation to get what you want. I guess this is what possessive maniac like me has to learn, to know what you want out of life and out of a relationship and then choose to either walk away or change the way you think. 

Unless self understood can be attained, it would be hard to avoid hurting people you care about with the assumptions of circumstances that one has in mind. 

So I have made up my mind since I started this blog. To start fulfilling what I need in order to know what I really want out of life. Change my negative circumstances and change myself in the process.